On 14 August 2016, it will be 25 years from the date I was diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes.
Twenty. Five. Years.
I was nine years old; I’d never heard of this “Diabetus” thing, and suddenly I was told that I couldn’t eat sweet things any more. The injections didn’t bother me – I was old enough to understand that without them I’d get sick again – it was the ice cream! I didn’t even have a particularly sweet tooth, but the profound loss that I felt having that freedom taken away surprises me even now.
My memory of that time is a little hazy, partly because I was severely DKA (somewhere around 43mmol/l!), and partly because it was so long ago. I’d been ill for months and seen various doctors, but in the end it was my Dad who put the puzzle together from his own hazy childhood memories of his sister’s diagnosis.
I was in hospital for two weeks. They told me how to draw up and mix the insulin from each vial, how much, how to flick the bubbles away, and how to inject. Twice a day, Actrapid and Protophane, with three meals and three snacks a day. All of the other information – understandably – went to my parents, and my poor Mum did her best to look after me whilst encouraging me to look after myself as I got older.
I’m not sure how much my Mum actually understood, and how much was lost in translation. I vaguely remember her weighing my food in the beginning, and always having to eat far more than I wanted to. But by the time I was an adult and out looking after myself the idea of carb counting was just a distant memory – and, dangerously, the link between what I ate and my insulin dose was alien to me! I actually thought it was just like any other medicine – you take it a few times a day, and it does its thing.
Fast forward 15 years; at a guess, I’d probably spent half of my Diabetic life DKA, but never been treated for it. Over time, the BG threshhold at which I became ill got higher, and I’d learned how to hide it from my family. I can’t remember there actually being any real turning point, but around ten years ago I started having massive, crashing hypos, which tells me my general BG levels must have been lower as for years before that hypos were rare. I still had no control though, generally still running higher than desirable.
Eight years ago, I moved to Fulham, South London, and was referred to the local hospital. I am convinced that these guys saved my life. Early on, I had an appointment with a junior doctor of some form; she was really blunt and pretty rude, and asked question after question that I just couldn’t answer. I felt that I was being judged, and ended up in tears. Within minutes, I was surrounded by most of the high-level team – the two top consultants in the department, the dietician, the head DSN. They asked more questions, but in a nicer way, and made a plan. Over the following months/years, every appointment was with one of those consultants – who remembered me every time – until earlier this year, when I was finally ‘downgraded’ (understandably, given the improvement in my control) to someone less senior. The Dietician and DSN team were always just a phonecall away. I was offered a pump (I didn’t like the idea so declined), and even a pancreas transplant (again, I declined – the transplant specialist didn’t exactly sell the idea).
Five years ago, I got to do DAFNE. It changed my life. For the first time, I had the knowledge I needed to manage my condition; I knew how to calculate my insulin dose, how to monitor and adjust my background/basal dose if needed – how to treat a hypo without ending up DKA! At my three-month review, my Hba1c was below 10 for the first time ever, and with further tweaks it has been as low as 6. I’m still far from perfect – I think that after the DKA blur of my teen years I tend to err on the side of a lower BG, so hypos are a long-running problem, but I’m now equipped to make decisions and changes when they are needed, rather than waiting months to check with my consultant at my next appointment.
The most important thing to come out of all of this is my daughter, a perfect 1yr old, born without major issue at a very non-diabetic 6lb 6oz – which I attribute directly to my fabulous Diabetes team, the knowledge and support they’ve given me.
To say that I’ve learned a lot in the last ten years is an understatement. Even aside from the general management of my condition, I’ve learned the incredible power of a supportive hospital team. I’ve learned that I can manage my condition. And I’ve learned that there is hope – I can (and intend to) be the first T1 in my family to see old age.
I didn’t fight for most of my 25 years, but if effort counts for anything, I’ve more than made up for that time. I know that I may encounter problems in the future because of it, and I’m on the lookout for any signs so that they can be treated/managed or even reversed.
So here’s to the next Twenty. Five. Years!